It has almost been a month since Bake left! And I honestly couldn't be more happy to have this month behind me! It has been such an emotional roller coaster. Some days I'm perfectly fine and I have the best outlook on the situation, but then some days I want to just lock myself in my room, eat brownies, watch love movies, look at pictures of me and Bake and cry. hahah but for the most part, this month has been great (: I sent Bake an Easter package while he was in the MTC! it was so cute. haha I probably enjoyed putting it together, more than he enjoyed it.

I filled 100 eggs with 100 reasons why I love him (:

Bake left the MTC on April 17th, to go to Honolulu Hawaii! But he had a layover in Seattle, where he was able to call me (: We weren't able to talk long, but I'm so glad that I even got to hear his voice for 5 minutes. Ha I was soo nervous for him to call me! I have no idea why. But the whole time we were on the phone, I swear all I could say was "I love you and I miss you" I was surprised that I was able to keep myself together throughout the conversation! but literally the second we hung up the phone, I couldn't even stop myself from crying. It's so frustrating to be so upset, and the only person that can help you feel better, is the one person you can't talk to! But despite that little breakdown, that phone call made my entire week! haha now I just hope that I am able to get to talk to him on mothers day.

I have a little countdown app on my phone that I check 6 times a day to see if any bubbles have been magically filled in. haha I'm in love with it (: and last week one section of it was finally filled in! whoooo (:

haha call me a nerd, but I STILL haven't been able to delete our text conversation from my phone :/ I just can't do it! I love having it there to read through when I'm having a bad day.

I haven't gotten a letter from him since he has been in Hawaii yet, but that's okay! it's only been a week (: I'm just so anxious to hear about how he's doing and what has happened so far. The other day I sat down for 2 and a half hours and just wrote him everything that was on my mind. (all encouraging stuff of course) haha and this was the result of that 2 and a half hours..

16 whole pages (: haha and that's just one days worth! I'm definitely not done writing the letter! It was so cute, because the week before he left the MTC, he sent me a letter. and as I opened it, I got this whiff of flowers? haha so I look at the bottom of the envelope and there's two little squished flowers at the bottom that he apparently picked on his walk from the MTC to the temple. hahah I couldn't help but to laugh at him (: He's so dang cute. You can barely tell that they were flowers. but It's adorable either way (: