there's so much that i want to say to you, but i'm not sure where to begin. should i start by telling you that i love you? or that the days i've spent with you have been the happiest of my life? or that in the time that i have known you, i've come to believe that we were meant to be together? i could say all those things and they'd all be true. but as i re-read them, all i can think, is that i wish i were with you now, holding you hand, and watching you smile."<3

In a few months, the boy that i love more than anything, will be leaving to serve a mission in...who knows where..? his call hasn't even come yet, and i find myself worrying about and overthinking every situation. i'm already sick with the thought of saying goodbye to him. i have a feeling that the next two years of  my life are going to consist of sappy love songs and chick flicks. everything around me will remind me of us. i'm going to miss him more than i ever thought possible.

"it's the way i miss you before you ever leave.."

through the past 20 months of me and baker dating, he has become my best friend. he has been my rock and my other half. he's been my third arm, my second set of ears, and my second heart. trying to put our love into words is next to impossible, but there is no need to explain, simply because i know in my heart how real it is. when im with him, or even think of him, i cant help smiling, knowing that he has completed me somehow.

Forever, Always, & No Matter What Baby.